It's time for a masthead. It's worth it! It was worth it to be kicked out of Brainstorms.
It is worth it to be who I am. It is worth it to do what I do. It is worth it to
say what I said, though God only knows I was polite as pie, until the end, then I gave them what
for and still do. I live for vengance against all things Brainstormish and my
Play Pretend Brainstorms is ten times better than the original.
It was worth it! It was worth it to hav emy Roanna_np account frozen on Neopets. It was worth it to write th ekind of role plays I wanted. Self expression was more important than painted pets and Neopoints. and I can play pretend my old pets at
PHATCH. Besides, I have a nice
little surprise for Neopets.
Project Straight and Narrow is now in Day Three and one way or another the data
will be available when I am ready to make it ready.
In other Vangence news, I went to schul today, to a Chabad house yet. Synagogue and traditional organized religion are antiBrainstormish. so this was a small but significant vengance victory.
Well the magic in Atlanta continues. I went to schul today. It was not just any schul, it was a Chabad house about five miles from here. For reasons that have to do wtih patterns of settlement in Atlanta, there are no schuls in Decatur. Well, imade the walk through Druid Hills (Yes, that is what it is called) down Ponce de Leon Road to the schul.
I also walked five miles back. I took a nap in the afternoon, but that was OK too. I had spirit contact and saw Merib. This is the tenth anniversary of his suicide. He asked me if I had really enjoyed my trip to Phipp's Plaza yesterday. I said yes and it baffled him. He also asked if I really trusted my new boss on the new job. I have a comlex answer to that question.
I don't want to write it here.
Now some of you are going to ask : are there any schuls that will ever satisfy me?
The answer is "not completely." It's a complex answer. First, I liked Chabad and would go back again in a heart beat. It was warm, friendly, they didn't heard aeveryone together through the prayer book which meant you could think, meditate and read at your own pace. There were young people there, and families with kids. They knew their main business was prayer and fellowship. I even learned a nice tidbit of real information in the sermon. We had a sermon. Of course we had a sermon, a real old fashioned five minute devar Torah.
Chabad is every bit as good as I remember, and every bit as flawed. The flaws are not a big problem becasue I am a female who became observant as an adult. I don't read a lick of Hebrew so participating in athe services is not really an option. The prayer books have excellent translations anyway. The first problem is that the Lubavitch mix up European shtetl culture with Judaism. There is nothing sacred about cholent and kishkes. I got to try kishkes and found them nothing to write home about. If I am going to eat something that unheathly give me potato chips or Doritos any day. They taste better. The cholent also was the meaty kind with the barley cooked to mush and the broth unskimmed. I did not eat much of either of these things. There are just better things to eat and most of them are kosher. Even on Shabbos your body is still a temple.
That brings me to flaw number two. Chabad encourages a kind of boys will be boys good fellows camaraderie and taht includes loud singing and plenty of booze, in this case big bottles of Scotch whiskey on the table and the guests partaking, but mainly the male guests. The women do not drink much. The menon the other hand get disgustingly sloppily druink. Fortunately, no one was an ugly druink. Set and setting controls a lot of it.
According to one of the college students there "drinking lechaim" is not the same thing as taking shots. I'd been watching the activity at the tables and I begged to differ. True, people were not driving home so if they got ripped off their posteriors what difference did it make. Note: a lot of families wtih kids took their kids home before the meal really got under way. I'm not sure why. To me drunk and sloppy in the middle of the day is still drunk and sloppy in the middle of the day.
The problem of liquor and Lubavitch or just liquor on the Shabbos table is an old one and not one I'm going to solve on this blog. I've seen it other places. If I was going to solve it, I would include other chices besides har dliquor and I'd have out mixers so that those who wanted hard liquor could have cocktails. I'd also have digestifs and apparatifs and cordials. Sipping cocktails or having a ordial at the end of the meal is not the same as getting smashed for a religious reason. The problem is Judaism permits drinking in moderation, and Lubavitch ant to make sure the world knows that we are Jews. It is just a question of where to draw the line. You can see why this is a tough one.
I think obeying some of the common sense drinking taboos is a good start. I also think the Lubavitch should pay more attention to healthy food and drink. Having only one bottle of non caffeinated non diet soda out there and big bottles of whiskey on the table sends a bad message especially when there are sickly children at the hsabos table.
This schul also has fat cats. What schul doesn't. It does not have a fat cat problem due to its emphasis on prayer and fellowship. Still when someone sits and tells you about what plane tickets to Israel cost for Passover (and they've bought them before and are buying them again.) you know that they are loaded. A lot of these families also live in the far suburbs. Some live closer by. there were students from Emory University at the Chabad house as well. The fact that I work at a large academic community college puts me in a different world five days a week. I know all this stuff, though I am trying to put it aside. Not being a fat cat, and being afraid of being doctored (You are better off if you don't end up in the doctor's office in the first place. They usually do as much harm as good.) though puts me in another world with very different concerns.